I wish we could try once more
By Ngor Khot Garang
Sometimes as human beings, the difficult problems we are faced with are not about successes or failures but finding courage and audacity to simply try again. Sometimes we fall down and finding the courage to get up becomes hard. We are delicate human beings, our hearts easily breaks and we don’t have the power to control our tears. We wants comfort and an easy life but that is a different story that none of us could explain. And when we can’t get that, we wonder what we have done to deserve this. Everything we touch disappoints and the commitments we make sometimes ends in sorrows. The struggle to find meaning sometimes cost us our lives. Everything we try doesn’t work.
When we try new things with high hopes that it would produce what our hearts desires and it only makes us cry even more. We tend to blame ourselves for the things we are incapable of doing and the pains that we go through. When we try some other things, it gets even worse. The problems begin to increase. The weight begins to increase and we get confused and living becomes a burden to many of us.
We all struggle with these feelings from time to time. We fear the suffering would never end and the pain would never stop. In the pits: we wonder will this gray sky ever brighten? This load ever lightens? We might even be asking “Does God really care, does he exist”? We may feel locked in inescapable trap and predestined for failure. Will we ever exit this pit? Or are we going to cross this river?
Those questions never miss our lips when life is tightening the ropes and people should not be blamed if they feel that way because it is natural. But know that God’s plans for us are greater than those temporary setbacks. You may find yourself in a hard situation through divorce, death of loved one, loss of health or financial constraints or whatever that may force you to start from scratch. But this one should not stop us from moving forward.
Who knows it might be the beginning of new life. Even in worst of situations. Even if you reach what you consider to be your lowest point. It would be a great mistake that will for the rest of your life haunt you if you give up because of life challenges. We must always remain strong and resolute even in the worst of circumstances. There is nothing we can do than to dry the tears and move ahead. Challenges have always been there and they are going to be there forever. Some were defeated, others were handled and many ignored. So, there is no need to cry when things aren’t going right.
I know sometimes those tears explain what you normally go through but it pays and it will surely pay if you wipe them and call God to lift your hand up. Sometimes standing in the water with your feet as the waves crash around you, then lifting you up and then tossing you down with nobody to help you can be pretty heartbreaking and this leave us to think that God does not care about what we are going through which is one of the excuses I can’t and will never concur with.
God is not against you and going through pains and suffering does not mean you have done something wrong to him. It could be a bend on the road to success and he would never reproach you for the things you have failed to accomplish as you walk through the ruins of our broken world. He watches over us even in the days when we feel like there is no reason to live or to try again.
Whatever our fate maybe, we have to believe that everything would be alright at the end of the day. Everything that starts in the manner we do not like may end in a surprising way. Everything, the problems, failures and all the difficulties are there for a reason and the giver and finisher of life knows when he would turn them into unbelievable successes. Don’t trouble yourself that maybe the reason why things aren’t working out well was you being born to poor family or whatever that might have happened during your birth.
If this is what is on your mind, you better think again because what I know is that your day is under way and it will surely come. Believe it. You are not a nobody perhaps a somebody who did not know it yet. It does matter what words have been spoken behind your back. It doesn’t matter the curses spoken against you. You will win and you will forever do so.